Time

     It's funny how time goes, Some days are miserably slow and some days I'm putting Nathan to bed and it feels like the whole day was a blur. Most of my days are pretty slow. I try and get Nathan and I out of the house as much as possible. I got my military ID today so hopefully we will be spending a lot of time on base exploring! I have talked to Daniel twice since he left. He sounded great both times. He is ready to come home and be a family again with Nathan and I. We miss him, he is in our nightly prayers and I write him every day. I have even sent him a few picture's which he said is hanging in his locker! I keep fantasising on when we will finally get to see each other again. It will be so nice to be able to run up to him and throw my arms around him! I wonder if Nathan will recognize him? I'm going to try and get a hotel on base. It will be safer for Nathan and I and we will get to be closer to Daniel. I want to spend as much time with him as I can! My parents have already said that they would watch Nathan for a little while so Daniel and I can have some "us" time.
    Since Daniel left I have felt a little abandoned. I haven't gotten any letters from him which other wives who have Airmen in his flight have. There where 2 weeks where I didn't hear a single word from him. Those were the toughest 2 weeks so far. When he finally did call it was bitter sweet. The first phone call was a breeze. He had been gone a week and it really hadn't set in that he wasn't coming back anytime soon. This past Saturday call was a different story. He said he wouldn't wish what he was going though on anyone. He said we was tired and wanted to come home and that he missed us.  He said he wasn't going to quit though. He was going to finish  because we have worked too hard to get where we are now. Hearing him and and knowing he is having a hard time has really made me wonder in the Air Force is the thing for me to do. I still think it is, I still want to do it more then anything. I just think that it maybe harder then I realize.