Being Me

When I found out I was pregnant with Nathan I had a mix of emotions. At first I was scared then nervous then very excited! Some questioned what kind of mom I would be and if I would even be a good one (since I was 19 when I got pregnant and Daniel and I had only been married for 4 months!). Well I have had the job of being a Mommy for a year now and I have to say that it is the BEST job that I have ever done! I never really liked working, I didn't mind school but an actual job, I hated! To me being Nathan's mom isn't a job it's too much fun to be called a job. Even if he still isn't sleeping though the night yet, and I'm still tired all the time. I wouldn't trade it for the world! Like right now as I'm writing this I can hear Nathan waking up over the monitor. He has already turned his mobile back on and is talking to his stuffed animal's. What job is better then that? I know that when he finally calls for me it will be time for breakfast and in between bites he will be making faces at me or looking all around the kitchen to see if anything has changed since last night's bedtime snack.

There are so many things that I love about that little man! For example his big brown eyes, and that is the first thing people notice and comment on. Everytime we leave the house I can always expect to get a comment like this "Oh look at those gorgeous big brown eyes! They are adorable!" I've gotten to the point where it doesn't bother me and I've stopped thinking "Does my son really have these huge eyes?" kinda like I've finally got over all the comment's on how he looks just like his Dad. Those really bugged me after Nathan was born. I might as well had Daniel carry Nathan though pregnancy and the 15 hours of labor it took to get him into this world! lol. You live and learn. Now I can't wait to have a girl and I'm just going to cross my finger's that she will look like me and still be as adorable as her brother.

All in all I love being a Mommy. I think that when Heavenly Father put me on this earth it's what He had in store for me. I was worried at first about how hard and frustrating being a mom could be, but it's all been surprisingly easy! I fell into being a Mom like I fell into being a wife. I love both!

One that note, I love being a wife. I really do. I like doing Daniel's laundry and sewing up holes in his pockets. It's my job and I love doing it. Now when someone does it for me, well I don't like that too much! Lately living with parents I have felt like I can't be the wife to Daniel that I want to be. Alot of the time I miss our old apartment where I would have dinner on the table when he got home. He would ask me to do something for him and I would be glad to do it! I love being a wife and mommy. It makes me feel needed and wanted. I like doing my husbands laundry, sewing his clothes up and cooking him dinner. It's my job along with taking care of Nathan. I think it's the best job a woman could have! I think I will love it even more as our family finally starts to grow!


**Side note*** There is HOPE! Daniel leaves for MEPS on Tuesday! I drop him off at the recruiter at 9 am and pick him back up Wednesday evening! I guess prayer's really can be answered!!!